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Name: Layla
Country: Malaysia
Birthday: 10/4/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: fashion, body art, body piercings, dangling earings, music, hanging out with my best friends-ayu(which is also my sis), maria n elly, concerts, live bands, clubbing, nature, adventuruous stuffs..etc
Occupation: Student
Industry: Engineering
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
MSN: layla0410
Yahoo:  layla_mustaffa
Member Since:
11/7/2004
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| Work is amazingly challenging these days...sigh. I'm a process engineer, and I had to do instrumentation and control stuffs, as well as mechanical piping. I'm going crazy. Basically the project is to replace 2 Level Control Valve. For some reason, pressure drop across the valve is very high, thus I have to study the cause of the valve failure (it fail only after a yr, its duplex so you know its freaking expensive). So here I am, running software for control valve sizing, calculating the pressure drop across a RO (restricted orifice) or a reducer, and doing cost estimate for every inch of piping modifications. Gosh. Then there's another project, I had to calculate the time it takes to start up compressors and Glycol Contactors. The presentation is this Sunday (we in Terengganu work on Sundays). Dahla at the same time, I had to revamped this whole project database. I definitely will be working through the weekend. Sigh
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| He's been away for 7 days already, another 9 torchering days awaits. Sigh. No communication at all seems imtolerable for me. I can only call in the middle of the night, when he's done with work and back at mother platform. I'd already be asleep by then. So I set my alarm. When I call, he was whispering really softly, because others in the room are fast asleep. So I was grumpy and he's super tired. The next day he called my office as usual, but offshore phone line was terrible, I had to raise my voice for him to hear me. So, it was unpleasant and my cubicle have got no privacy at all, you can imagine.
I'm always in bad mood since the past 2 days. I can't get proper sleep, and there's people who annoys me at work. Being the biggest laser-mouthed she is and super "penyibuk" (exactly fir the term menjaga tepi kain orang). He is like my bestest friend, when he's not around, there's no one that can cheer me up. Seeing him and spending time with him, is the only thing I look forward to at the end of the day. Now, I don't have him to spend time with after work. And I'm upset because shut down had to that super long. 11 days ok, who shuts down a platform for that long??? And this "genius" guy had to send my boyfriend onboard 4 freaking days before the shud down starts. So for 4 days he does nothing. They're trying to bring in front the shut down date, but with no proper planning whatsoever.
I'm mad.
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| I've had unexpected occurrences in my life for the past month or so. Well, we call it the "downs of life". It would've be tough without having someone to go through with. Its great having someone where you can be yourself and not drive that person away, with all your flaws and all. Someone to share everything with, silly things, happiness and even tears. Sometimes I can't believe I write this way now. If you were to read my entries years back, during my studying days. Whenever I write about men, dating, love and relationships, I always sounds so skeptical about it. I doubt true love, I don't believe faithfulness exists, I'm skeptical about meeting the love of my life and particularly I don't there's any good, single man exists in this world anymore. Now I'm writing the opposite. I'm truly happy and contented.
Other than that, work is fine, but I get demotivated once in a while, normal I guess. Maybe a getaway would bring my motivation up. I miss studying, thinking about furthering my studies. Not too sure if its a good time, since economic is not so good and having a secured job is all everyone wanted and I got one right now. Sigh...
Too sleepy now, will write again sometime. I miss blogging so much but don't seem to be in the mood eversince I started working and all.
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| Its exactly 2.41in the morning and somehow I can't, or is it I didn't try to sleep. Had late dinner and was too full to sleep, and now i've wayy past my bedtime, so it gets a little hard.
Yes, my dear boyfriend is offshore and he's coming in more or less 30 hours from now. Being away sucks ok, big time!!! I was reading through a friend's blog. For most of the part for the past year, she's been writing about her relationship problems and issues. And I must say I thank god, not to say mine are free from problems and issues, at least mine are not as big as hers. Issues are mostly our differences. I bet everyone came across this sentence at least once in their life "Someday someone might come into your life and love you the way you wanted". And I realized, it is happening to me. I basically got that someone thats irreplaceble.
I love being in his arms, I love spending all the time I have with him, I love the how his lips feel on mine, I love how he always make me laugh, how he cheers me up during my sad times, I love how he's so manja with me. Everything feels right, even though we're havings fights and basically yelling at each other's face. Still I never felt this kind of love, its pure and its very sweet. Buyat syg, I wanna spend the rest of my life you syg. I can't wait to be yours.
30 more hours and I'll be in your arms.
BTW, although line offshore is really bad, as in really bad. There's no TELEKOM or TM or handphones. Only our own little satelite at the platform. That satelite has been down for 6 days now, so basically I haven't heard his voice in 6 days. THIS, has happened before, its my first time and its killing me. There's limited PCs there, and 120 people onboard are using it. So, we only email each other, and I get limited number of replies. We chat at nite for about 10min, tops. Gosh, mmg cabaran betol kan?
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| Seriously, I have a lot to write but these are the reason why don't:
1. I have barely time for myself to rest
2. When I wanted to write, it was not the right time (I wasn't in the right mood or state of mind to pour my heart out)
3. When I'm in front of the pc, my mind went blank from having to recall what I really felt when whatever I want to talk about was really happening
4. My xanga is wayyyyy too outdated without pics and etc, due to pc breakdown, my files are everywhere now..some at the office, external hard disk, my few thumbdrives. Since its not updated, its creating and extra lazy mood to even write
I missed those days when I was in UTP, I was able to write whenever I want to and whenever I'm in the mood. Time is not as flexible when you're working, you have to agree with me. Plus it doesn't help when you're always on the run during working hours, adding the factor that I don't have internet access at the office.
Chow for now.
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